i'm fucking fed up with everybody. i have been having such a good month until this week. i;m sick of introducing friends to friends and then they all ditch me to hang out without me. or when i ask them to miss work one day to hang out and they say no yet they do it for someone else. what the fuck. i'm so sick of this and i'm done. you call me your best friend? ok go fuck yourself cuz it's not true. i'm gonna go to back to back rehearsal and see if i can last.

so it's thanksgiving. a holiday so boring that I need to go to my aunts house which I hate, but I GET SCHOOL OFF so I don't care :) haha NYC WAS AMAZING YESTERDAY. Young Frankenstein has to be one of the best musicals i've ever seen. it was so amazing and great and ahh i can't explain it. We ended up seeing Mary Poppins at night which was AWESOME as well. It was another amazing show that words can't explain. The ride home sucked, but the trip was worth it. Pics are up on my facebook. So I got a call yesterday in NYC and the Pippin cast list was posted. Me and my friend Dana are The Leading Player :) I'm sooo happy I got that part. I wanted Pippin, but honestly I was surprised that Javi got it over me cuz of his audition which wasn't so hott in the beginninng, But in reality I knew he would get it..But i'm in love with my part so it's gonna be good :)

have a good turkey day everyone! i have to go be miserable at my aunts.

so school is DONE FOR THE WEEK! i'm so happy. well I passed in my Boston Conservatory stuff to guidance today so i'm really excited!! also Pippin auditions were today and they went really well, so I should be finding out soon what the outcome was. NEW YORK TOMORROW!!!! i'm seeing Young Frankenstein at 2 oclock and then was supposed to see The Little Mermaid at 8 but the strike caused to be closed. Then I had Mary Poppins tickets, but my order got rejected because it sold out while I was trying to buy them? So me meg and erica are gonna just student rush Xanadu. it's my favorite show right now so why not? ok HAVE A GOOD TURKEY DAY EVERYONE!

so let's sum up my weekend shall we?

Friday night me meg and randy set out on an adventure. where to? the New England Theatre Conference in Waterville Valley. Haha so basically we got there all right, but ended up at the ski lodge instead of the conference center. So we kind of got lost and had to find a native american to help us find our way. We got in and hung around then rehearsed. The Grease performance went really well. The audience loved it. Then we had to sit around for like an hour and a half and do NOTHING. Consisted of me Meg Randy and Murphy sitting on a couch, chairs, stairs, in a mustard room with a fire extinguisher haha. Finally the cabaret performance came. I sang It Takes Two and it went really well. After a bunch of directors and people came over and shook our hands and complimented us. It was really worth the hassle of driving up there. The ride home was just interesting with random guys asking me and Meg where we are from haha. Thenn I crashed at Randys.

Saturday i spent all day doing stuff for Captain Fantastic. The performance that night went so PERFECT. Every rehearsal we had sucked basically, but the show pulled together and it was awesome. The crowd was great too. Then we went to Fridays and I was planning on having my good friends sleep over and people were asking me and I had to say no because I couldn't have too many people over so they were getting annoying so I just kind of left haha. Cady Brittany Steph Javi Dave and Brianna slept over. It was a long night of talking, but fun.

On the way home the topic of Pippin came up today and seriously it's getting annoying now. It seems like whenever I actually think i have a chance of getting a good part for Ms. M, it drops right out when someone else wants it..aka Javi. So it sucks, but w/e.

Today i'm gonna sit in and relax. It's been a fast weekend. Luckily I have no school on Tuesday so I can chill all day.

so weeks are flying by and i love it. i've been stressed out and i'm dying for weeks to fly by so I can get to days i've been waiting for. one in particular is Young Frankenstein in NYC on Nov. 21. My SATS sucked and i'm dissapointed in myself so much :/ Boston Conservatory is now my top pick for school, honestly theatre and singing is all I really have and can do without fucking it up so, I want to go there now and I love the school. I'm so excited for this weekend because of Grease, the cabaret performance, and road trip to Waterville Valley w/ Meg Randy and Murphy. It's gonna be so awesome. I'm singing It Takes Two and Corner Of The Sky for my solos. Then my senior class play is the very next night. All day on Friday I have dress rehearsal for it til 1 then i'm getting dismissed to possibly meet up with Randy Meg and Murphy for lunch before we head off to Waterville Valley. I'm singing I Can't Stand Still and Corner Of The Sky for my BOCO audition. Monologue? NO CLUE haha. Well i'm gonna go watch the Sox and whatnot. To all my Amesbury friends I MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH, PLEASE HANG OUT ASAP! If not I hope to see all you guys Saturday night at my SCP :)

So i've been on the move a lot lately doing so much stuff. I finished my Pride and Prejudice paper that was due today, yesterday. I think it's one of my best papers so i'm excited to pass it in. I'm also very excited because Bridgette asked me to be Kenickie in the special performance of Grease up in Waterville Valley on Nov. 2. Makes my life because i've always wanted to do that role. On the other hand i'm deathly ill with the plague of MHS. It hit me on Friday and into Saturday where me and Javi won the Wicked lottery in Boston. So I sat thru the show sick. Then yesterday it got worse and I had to leave Dracula at the first intermission because I could not breathe in there. I felt like an asshole leaving, but I wouldn't have made it. Kate and Meg and the rest of the cast was doing awesome though..so if you guys read this I appologize. So now it's off to school I go where I'm hopefully getting dismissed for a doctors appt asap. :( Laterrr

So, today our spring musical was announced and it's PIPPIN. I'm excited because i've wanted to play Pippin, it's a dynamic role and the songs are amazing. So, now I get to worry about not getting it now, because Javi will probally get it since the leading player is being seperated into 2 or 3 people. Ugh, so i'm going to sing, Giants In The Sky from Into The Woods for my audition song, so we'll see what happens.

Anyways school has been going well. I'm straight A in math which excites me. Theatre and Choir are fun obviously. I love Legal Studies too. I just haven't got much sleep lately, so we'll see how this is goign to go haha. I got my license back last week WHICH IS AMAZING. I love driving again haahah its the best feeling. I miss the amesbury friends, ALOT.

I saw Across The Universe and IT'S AMAZING. I can't stop listening to the soundtrack. Also I went to Six Flags on Saturday and that was good. I'm off to bed! byeee!

Well school has been going for over a week now and I enjoy it. I just want my car back and I think i'll be a lot better. I need to get a job soon and learn my senior class play lines. It's going so great. We blocked the entire show now and it's awesome. I feel good about it especially because Ms. M never has notes for me like she usually does. So here I am on a Sunday afternoon putting off homework, a cup of tea, it's chilly out, and listening to the streaming Broadway On Broadway concert that I wish I was at in NYC. It's beginning to seem like fall and I love it. Fall means, leaves changing color, caramel apple cider, apple picking, argyle, scarves, peacoat. ahh I love it. I picked out my seniior pictures and will be giving them out so if you want one let me know :) I hate weather changes though because my allergies get horrible. Like right now my nose is so stuffed and my throat is killing me. I thought I caught the Methuen High cold, but I didn't.

So school has been going on for a week now and I love it. My Schdule is so stress free and I love my honors choir because it's going to be so much fun learning so much new stuff. Everything is going great in school too friends wise. Senior class play is coming along SO AWESOME and I expect everyone to be there November 3!!! It's hilarious. So on other news my auntie bought me tickets to see Xanadu on stage September 29th!!! Me and Meghan are gonna go i'm so excited! We're gonna rush Legally blonde or something for the matinee. So i'm in a good mood haha. Later all!

so summer is over. over. over? over. Wow where did it go? So it's my first day of senior year tomorrow. Holy shit i'm a senior?!

Block 1 - gym..yahh I have gym that early in the morning too meg, but its at 730. EWW

Block 5 - Honors Choir which should be good

Block 3 - History Of The American Musical my honors theatre. LOVES IT!

Block 2 - Theatre Development Ms. M just can't get rid of me haha

Block 6 - Legal Studies.

It's gonna be a good day.

Good luck to everyone on tomorrow! Especially us seniors!

So, summer is coming to a close and it's a step away for my senior year of school..THANK GOD. I thought I would never see the day of senior year haha. But to sum up the summer it's been interesting. I finally saw Xanadu and the new revival of Grease. It got horrible reviews, but I enjoyed every second of it. It was really good. Minus the kid who played Danny..I was very dissapointed by his job because I liked him on the reality show. His voice isn't strong enough for Broadway. Then i've been hanging out with Megan a lot which has been good since I can talk to her about anything. We saw Rocky Horror on Saturday and it was so awesome. My friend Marissa who played Janet was amazing. Now i'm waiting for my new cell phone to come in the mail since I ordered it on Saturday, then I need to activate it. But that's all. Hope the rest of the summer is good to all!

So I haven't written in a while. I've been so busy it's disgusting. I'm waiting for The Hills to start at 10 and Meghan is passed out behind me on my bed waiting haha so I decided to make an entry.

Well lately i've had a lot on my mind and it sucks because it just puts me in a bummed out mood. I mean not having my license sucks too because I can't get away. It seems like i'm never going to get it back I really hate this law and think it's so stupid since the cop made a mistake and I didn't even do anything...I've been here and there for the past month of summer. New York, Old Orchard, Hampton, and Boston. I can't believe school is almost here, like it's so crazy to think i'm going to be leaving high school. I'm so happy, but nervous about what schools i'm going to get into and what not. I guess i've been putting everything off and trying not to think about it and that's why I have been in such a good mood, but everythings hitting me at once now and I don't know what to think. I spilt to Tasha today in the car and it felt good, but I need to take everything one step at a time I guess and not get all jumbled up. Between feelings for people and what I want to do and not having my license. I went to NYC yesterday and saw Xanadu which i've been waiting to see and which was amazing. And then at night I was at the opening night of the new Grease revival which is getting horrible reviews for no reason. I loved it and it was a really fun show. I've seen shows that were worse..People are just being stupid because the leads are from a reality show. Then I got home and passed out at 3 in the morning...Today I hung out with Tasha Chris Jacqui and Megan. I miss Meg so much and we're hanging out all day tomorrow to catch up thankfully, I need to talk to her so much I guess..*shrug* I guess we'll just see what I have ahead of me when it comes.

So Charlie Brown has been running now and it's been going really great. The audience loves it every night and i've never heard such a great response from such a small crowd..Damnit Bill don't you know how to advertise? Anyways lately i've been waking up at like 7 and not being able to fall asleep and it sucks because i'm always tired. Things are getting better though. Between my awesome school scheduele and how me and Chris have been so great it makes me happy and I try to forget my shaft in Fiddler which I shouldn't of even bothered auditioning for since I need a job, and not having a license til Sept. 28. Ughhhhh. Whatevs I need to forget about the bad things and enjoy my summer before i'm officially a senior! It excites me because my schedule is going to be so comfortable and not stressful. I need to focus on finding a job, but now with Fiddler I have to try and figure out when I can work so I can't give them a set schedule. It suckssss BLAH. Yesterday me Kate Ben and Randy all hung out and went to Andymans for a while and caught up. Then we went back to Kates where we played an intense game of Scene It and Buzzword. Ended up having a night show for a tiny audience and just enjoyed doing it again. The cast is getting bored with normal things in it so every day we add new things and it's just awesome because it's such a fun show. Everyone raves about it too. After the show me and Chris went to Hampton with Tasha and Orlik and sat in the fog and ate. Then we went to Newburyport and me and Chris sat by the pier and just sat out and talked and it was nice to have some alone time with him while Tasha and Orlik went for a walk. So today i'm going to run errands. Tomorrow i'm going to my matinee at 130 then going to see HAIRSPRAY!! with Chris Tasha and Orlik and whoever else. Then i'm going to the release of Harry Potter at midnight at Borders! YEAHH!

Later ya'll.

So I find it funny that I haven't posted in forever, but I haven't had any time and have been constantly running around. Anyways I think the biggest thing right now was losing my license for not doing anything? I got a speeding ticket back in like March trying to find my friends house in Billerica and the guy said I was going 35 in a 25. So I got a court date to fight it and then when it came in it was the day of my History final. So my mom just paid the ticket. Yeah not a smart idea since the new law is if youre under 18 you lose your license for 90 days and have to take classes and i'm bullshit because we looked into it and the speed limit where I was pulled over is 35..So I wasn't even speeding. So the cop is trying to get us a court date and now i'm getting the feeling it's not gonna happen :(

I went to NYC on Sunday with Tasha and Meghan. Tasha saw 10 Million Miles off broadway where she met her sister and it starred one of my biggest idols Matthew Morrison and Tasha got a headshot personalized and signed for me and it says Good Luck :) Then Meghan saw Forbidden Broadway which she says is hilarious and made fun of everything you can think of haha. I saw the closing performance of Company..Oh wow. It was AMAZING. I wish I would of learned more about the show earlier because it's incredible. The music and RAUL ESPARZA was just breath taking. When he sang "Being Alive" I lose it. The entire theatre was up on their feet when he hit his last note. I had chills down my entire body through-out the entire show. I'm so glad I got to see it.

Now it's tech week for Charlie Brown. We were at the Playhouse til 11 last night because both cats ran the show. I think that both casts are in really good shape for the show. It sucks because none of our matinees are advertised so we are going to have like no shows and we're having so much fun and I love the show and we aren't going to get to perform..:( But our cast got thru the show faster and had everyone laughing. I love my cast and everyone is great and everyones character is AWESOME. So if you can come see a matinee and make reservations in advance haha. Oh well that's about it!

So I went to NYC Sunday and saw Jersey Boys FRONT ROW and it was honestly a dream come true to finally see the friggin show. It was absolutley amazing and is 10 times better than you could ever think. Then at night I sat 2nd row center for Legally Blonde. God the wonders of Student Rush haha. it was even better than before.

Now we're in Charlie Brown rehearsals and it's going really well. The cast is so talented and I know it's going to great!

I'm going back to NYC in late June w/ Meg and Andre and possibly Josh to see Xanadu at night since Meghan's show got cancelled on Sunday so she didn't see it :( So we're all going to see that at night and in the day i'm probally going to go see 100 In The Shade or Grey Gardens while they see Les Miz. I saw it once at Burlington High and it was amazing and so is this music, but I can't sit thru it again haha.

Well i'm off to the beach! Later kids.

oh and P.S.: 11 days left of school!!!!!!

So Damn Yankees closed today and i'm stoked! I'm never doing a show with little kids again, EVER. I got into Charlie Brown as SCHROEDER :) The part I realllly wanted. It's going to be an awesome cast and tons of fun since it's a 6 person cast. The adult cast is really well cast too. Uhmmm i'm seeing Gwen Stefani on Wed. And i'm going to see some awesome kids in Chorus Line on Friday...and OH NYC ON SUNDAY! I'm leaving at midnight to get into the city so I can student rush Jersey Boys and finally fucking see it. Legally Blodne again at night, i'm stoked. Thats about it. I'm going to sleep. laterrr.

so what a week it has been. Damn Yankees opened up on Friday and it went really well. i'm proud of the cast..well minus the tiny incident of donna kelly knocking the set over haha..anyways i've gotten really close with Bethany Honey and Ricky and Orlik and it's awesome we became such a good group of friends, but it sucks Bethany is leaving for 11 months next week :( I hate Sundays.. I don't know something about having to think about school the next day since I hate Mondays so far. I'm actually excited for this show to end because it means it will be closer to summer. I'm hopefully going to my 2nd home NYC Memorial Day weekend..I've been happy since I met someone I actually can connect and talk with..I want to audition for Charlie Brown next week, but i'd be auditioning the night of callbacks for it and I doubt i'll have a chance, so I don't know if I want to yet. Well i'm going to go back to listening to Legally Blonde..and relaxing. Later.

So it's 4:42 in the morning and i'm up warming the good old vocal chords up. I can't believe today is what it is. I'm trying to just think of it as another day/audition because I refuse to let nerves really get to me, but i'm auditioning for Spring Awakening and honestly, it's a big step in my life. My dream to be on Broadway was in middle school when I was younger. My freshman year I stopped thinking about it because I didn't think it was the "cool" thing to be doing. But that summer I realized it's my passion. Spring Awakening is an amazing musical and it's vocal range is perfect for my voice. Sure I may not have an amazing voice, but I have the confidence to say that my voice is right for the show. I'm going and i'm going to have a blast, rock out, and show the casting people what I really can do. *Takes deep breath* It's all or nothing, so what the hell, i'm going for it..

So it's finally April, THANK GOD. This means, April vacation which brings me back to my love NYC to see Spring Awakening on stage, Legally Blonde, and possibly Rent or Les Mis, also 2 months til schools over. I saw Les Mis at Burlington high and it was amazing. Not one flaw the cast was so into it and the sets were breathtaking. I couldn't believe it was a high school show. I got into Damn Yankees at the playhouse. I'm playing Smokey? Oh well I get some solos and my characters funny so i'm excited. We just need some guys for baseball players. I've been working so much to get money for NYC so that's good.

This past weekend was fun. Friday night was my junior prom and the after party at cederdale. It was a lot of fun except the fact my class is made up of stuck up morons who get drunk and think theyre the shit. They all looked like fools on the dance floor. Cederdale basically consisted me catching up with old friends that I haven't really talked to since last year in the hot tub and pool. We played tennis and stuff it was a good time until it turned 330 and a wave of tiredness hit us and we all were ready to pass out and we couldn't leave til 445. Then I got home and fell asleep at 530. At 9 my alarm sounded and I was off to Damn Yankees rehearsals. I love the songs i'm in theyre so much fun and the harmonies rock. Then that night was the Spring Music Festival. The choir sounded awesome all except the one person who got the solo I wanted in Run Freedom Run and ruined it..No comment ugh. I went out to eat later and miss smutney gave me my Legally Blonde tickets and i'm so excited! I also really want to know the 2007-2008 season for Broadway In Boston...random. Today I worked open to close then stayed after to do some wall moves, basically putting more shoes on display and putting some back in the boxes. Overtime is amazing. Then I went to wal mart with my awesome boss Shannon and we did store shopping haha.

Well i'm off to bed. Night.

So I have too much to talk about so it's gunna be random blurts haha.

Uhm Damn Yankees audition today? woot.
Aladdin is going amazing.
Kill the actors..ever eat with one? hahaha
Sex and the City and strawberry shakes at 1 in the morning w/ meg.
Belting out Spring Awakeing. Oh wait open call in Boston on April 21 w/ Randy?
Elise randomly iming me and talking to me when she doesnt even bother to call me since she got a bf like 3 days after me and her broke up. Wow.
Uhm Babes In Arms was amazing.
THATS WHY THE LADY IS A TRAMP!

miss all of Amesbury friends. A LOT.